Archive for June, 2010

This space could have been an entry about the new President’s Inauguration. Of course, I have my own angst about the country’s politics but as I made up my mind, I find myself still thinking about Probe, the closing of its regular show and at the same time, the official retirement of its very own CheChe Lazaro.

Probe is Probe. No other documentary shows come close. Nothing beats the pioneer. For sure, I am not the only one who’s sad in its farewell episode. When I first knew this, I wonder what will happen to the Production itself. I once asked my colleagues about this but the truth of the matter is always uncertain.

The story is familiar, because Kabataan News Network (KNN) is also closing today.

Probe, with its Foundation (PMFI) taught me a lot through the years. I have been a youth reporter of KNN since 2005. I was even promoted as Assistant Bureau Manager (BM) in 2008 then another level up, as Bureau Manager in 2009 up to the present. KNN life is rich in experience and definitely an unforgettable one. This taught me how to be a professional broadcaster in an early age. This has been my strict training ground where BMs back then will not tolerate mediocrity, my claim-to-fame and bragging trophy to my family, classmates and friends, my happy place not because meals are free and transportation expenses are reimbursed but because real friends and mentors are here.

Joseph reporting in the middle of the ricefield under the sun's heat.

KNN gave me unique experiences like immersing in a peasant community to capture their stories (see Gapos sa Gapas (2009) at, probing about street foods (see Tuhog (2007) or discovering child labor in my community in Marikina (see Sidecar (2008) and many more video stories that I was once a production assistant, cameraperson or writer.

Joseph during his stand-upper about the Reproductive Health bill

I just responded to a text message of a schoolmate asking if the closing is true. It is sad that these uncompromising productions will close soon but one thing is for sure, they will remain as inspiration for aspiring media practitioners in the future.

Indeed, no goodbyes for Probe and KNN, because I know we will kick back higher and stronger. Good vibes, good times!



Posted: June 22, 2010 in Ramdom thoughts

I have yet another first time in my life and that is being a resident dormer in UP. It was my first night to sleep inside my room and I slept soundly. I love the thought of being independent; I did this before but a part of me says this independence entails alot of things. This means I have to wash my clothes or bring it t the laundry shop myself, clean my area, be in good terms with my room mate/s, budget my weeekly allowance, cook or buy foods for myself and the list goes on…

It’s just my first week and many things will unfold as the days progress, like missing my little cousins at home, missing mommy’s adobo and missing daddy’s jokes. But I believe, this blooming dorm life is just a part of a bigger plan of fate to me. This is the training-ground. I can’t be dependent to my parents for all my life. Eventually, I will have to live my life on my own. This is another first time in my life, and a make or break thing.

Taym-pers, the term I used to shout with my playmates when I was a kid. It’s meant to be time-first or break from the game. I can’t believe this grown-up boy in me still shouts it today. The shout resounds within me. There are still some things worth stopping especially if that means loving your self more. I wish I could shout taym-pers with love and the heartache it brings. I still long for commitment with someone who knows me through and through and celebrate simple things in life with me at the end of the day. I wish I could shout it, but the shout remains inside, and the game goes on.